Firstly, yeah i'm 20 le!! means i'm old le omg!! My age starts with a digit 2 now! And gotta thank everyone who rmb my bdae or somehow got involve in it. Thanks for making urselves available. Didn't have any bdae song sang to me dis year cuz i feel dat it isn't my bdae at all. It juz feels like it was juz any other gathering we had, or worse. Anyway its a belated and it doesn't seem to have any meaning to do e normal bdae thingy ba. I know many ppl are so unhappy at me for playing Dota during gatherings but, juz to let u guys know, i dun like gatherings in which ppl are casted into diff small groups or they didn't even want to be there and it seems like its juz dat it they didn't have any excuses to avoid it. Next time, dun want u juz say dun want. Dun force urself to come and make a thousand complains on how hard was it for u to make urself free juz for us or wat. And 1 more reason dat i dun want any photographs taken or any songs dis year was dat i juz felt dat i looked like a damn bloody fool. It simply makes me feel so dumb and stupid. I feel like an idiot and even sounded like so desperate to even ask some ppl. Its like "Hey! There's reali no one celebrating my bdae so could u?" And pls pls pls ppl.. Dun ever PROMISE if u dun even rmb when was my bdae. And let me know till e very last min dat u can't or smt. Its juz so hurting. I dun even had e mood to celebrate it to begin with. I actually wanted to juz get away alone but i can't do dat, cuz i know there are reali ppl who reali cares and i truly appreciates it so so much. Was so happy initially to think of how i'm gonna celebrate dis year de but it turned out to be such a disappointment. Had a tendency to secretly open up my presents when no one was around every year but i was rather more shocked to even receive them dis year. I was like, "Wow.. Why are ppl even giving me presents when its only a normal gathering?" I know everyone is tired out but i rather u guys dun force it to e limit since its so hard. Only to find ppl lying around e house like a bloody booze nite we had and everyone ends up with a bad hangover. It'll only make me feel more dumb. Reali. And why would i even wanna wait for Darren and made hong boon leave in e end? If u guys reali want me to cut e cake and end it, why would't i do dat? I juz wanna have eveyone who's supose to be here to reali go cut e cake. And not show ppl dat "Hey, Its my bdae! I can wait forever to cut e cake!" It juz sucked dis year... And wats over is over.. I juz need some rantings on my blog for my own pleasure only. Dun start to blame anybody or start a debate or whatsoever. Thank You. I wouldn't be surprised if my sister wanna attempt suicide by jumping out of e window in my room again or even reali do it. Juz feels so sick to think of it man. Juz looking at her i know dat she'll be like me, with such hatred in her when she was being brought up. She's being caned and punished e way i was, but of cuz, mine would be worst since i'm a guy. And i'm sure she would wanna plot about how she could murder my step mum without anyone knowing. I used to.. And i knew these eyes dat tell. Juz hope dat she wun do anything funny for a Pri 2 kid ba. She still got a very long way to go. Lastly, I'm goin Taiwan next Fri le anyone wants me to get them anything? But u guys muz quickly pay me 1st cuz i'm so dead broke right now. Hope i come back in one piece ba. And pls get well soon my dearest darling. Thank You for everything u had done for me.. Thank You.. U know i Love u.. I reali do.. And if anyone by dis time still thinks dat i owe them an apology, try giving me a thousand and one reasons and i might kneel down and apologise ba. | 
